decisions decisions

Okay, so there's this boy. And he is awesome. And I really like him!! He is cute, funny, smart and caring. He doesn't like the over-sexulized world we live in (in other words no to strippers!!!!) and respects me. He actually goes out of his way to try to NOT be alone with me in private to avoid taking things too far too fast. Do you know how hard that is to find? Let's put it this way: I've been on over 30 first dates in the last few years before finding someone I could even visualize anything with, besides the exs that is. And I'd really like to see where this goes. Last night I was asked to hook up with a friend who was willing to come and pick me up and drop me off afterwards, but I said no for obvious reasons but also because I really like this guy and I wouldn't feel right being with someone else.

But he doesn't have any sense of time. I realize that's a small thing, so it shouldn't be a huge deal. HOWEVER it kinda is because we make plans and then he doesn't follow through with them whats so ever. Yesterday I ended up the 3rd wheel on what was supposed to be a double date, then spent my only night off waiting for a phone call from him cause we had moved our dinner plans to night plans and I ended up calling him later to see what was happening. Then plans were sketchly made to hangout this afternoon before my study-buddy thing at 6, so I texted him this morning when I woke up and no reply. Still! A little frustrating, to say the least.

Now here's the thing, this has only happened for this weekend right? Which also happens to be his birthday weekend AND he Jeep is in the shop. So honestly it's not a massively huge deal but it makes me wonder.... Will it happen often? He is a self-professed "free spirit" when it comes to timings and commitments to plans. Then there's me, working 36-48 hours a week, taking 4 University classes and all the homework and studying that goes along with it, AND I have my 6 dog sitting clients to take care of. Time-management has become a part of my life that I just cannot shake. My time IS important.

So should I be spending it waiting on some guy? Instantly I think "No!" but then I remember that we've only been seeing each other for 3 weeks and even then its only been on weekends because he works out of town so is gone during the week. Am I really able to make that type of decision at this point? Again I think "No". So far what I know about him makes him worth my time, to a degree!!! That's the important part!!

I'm all about spontaneity, but at this point in my life it just isn't an option for me... So could it work to be with someone who is strictly focused on living in the moment? Would it drive me crazy? I mean I totally let it ruin my weekend because I was annoyed and disappointed that I wasn't going to get to see him. I've decided that I am going to see him again, but that he needs to make the effort and not me because as of next weekend I am going to be busy until Easter. 5 weeks straight of dog sitting out of the house, plus my parents will be gone so I'll be driving back and forth every other night to their house to make sure the cats are OK. Not to mention the 3 papers, 3 midterms and 4 exams I have left to work on before April 8th.

So my plan is to have school my priority (only 4 weeks left plus exams - come on!) and he can come to me when he wants to see me right? I think that's a good way to live for the next little while at least. Once Easter comes around and my classes and exams are done I will be able to relax my time schedule a little bit, besides work and dog sitting right? RIGHT??? Someone agree with me here cause this is important to me and I don't want to mess up this chance with a great guy, but I also need to relax myself a little - but how?? Lol.